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Discomfort Food

Aubrey Levinthal’s Powerfully Depressing Solo Show

Eve Bigaj
11 min readMay 30, 2019

I Four Paintings

The neon sign on the window says “open.” An empty seat waits for her inside. And still she dithers behind the glass, searching the menu for answers.

43rd Street Pho Cafe (2019)

He lets the steam from his coffee stroke his chin. He’s so tired. He slouches, lets his arm droop onto the suitcase. The clock ticks away the minutes until his departure. In his mind, he’s already gone.

They may share a painting, but there is glass between them. The sign says “open” but it’s turned off. The seat is empty but it’s turned away from him.

Only the plants face towards each other — and even they don’t touch.

Depression is a glass pane between you and the world. Sometimes, it distorts the other side. Flowers droop prematurely, or become childish scrawls, the label “beautiful” instead of the real thing. Often, the glass gives you back your own sad face, obscuring everything else. But for the most part, it just locks you out. Nothing is different — except that you can’t get inside.

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Eve Bigaj
Eve Bigaj

Written by Eve Bigaj

Visual artist following curiosity wherever it leads. I have a Harvard PhD in philosophy. Learn colorful painting with me: evebigaj.com

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